Thursday, May 19, 2005
OMG jonas is going to sensation
i want to go, I Want To Go!
http://sensation.id-t.com/sensation2004/shit.
he asked me if i wanna fly over coz he managed to get 2 tickets for the white event. BUT HOW, tell me!!! ive school. that dreaded place
nevermind. next year! haha. we ll go for both the black and white events.
d=
im just a stupid little girl..and things got worse at home. lets just say i dont have a nice, warm home to go back to after a draggy day at school. its like world war 3.
actually i wanted to talk to my mum about i moving out. then i decided i shall just run someday. they dont seem to need any notice. and they would love the extra space.
yeah, and run i will. run to some new neighborhood. adopt a new wardrobe, a new look. get a new phone line. a new attitude. and a new life.
"i see u as an adult ah. to me, ure a cheerful lady"
doh... you think i really am?
seriously. its not fun acting like im happy, im okay with my family and lousy results, like im so cheeky and playful.
all i wanna do is just sit in a corner and cry my heart out. i dont want to care about the rest of the world, i dont want to hear any human voice and i dont want anyone to bother me
i just want to melt into the ground and disappear
so now we re on talking terms.but its not the same, it ll never be. you know it too.
you just remind me of him. and all the sadness, all the hate and regret comes back into my mind.
i get reminded of that night where we went our own ways
and everything else crumbles infront of me
i m.. stubborn
i refuse to cry
11:55 PM
